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18.11.17

Nocturne - the ideal player

Nocturne number twenty one,
opus two number eight,
in sea minor.

Imagine the ideal player ...
May I be so crass as to split hairs
between perfect and ideal?
Perfect is a correctness factor of unity.
Perfect allows no statistical fluctuations.
Perfect wears a ballroom gown,
and make up for a wedding.
Perfect has played the piece so many times
so as to achieve a 100% success rate.
Perfect is the execution of a program,
a clockwork deterministic reliable machine,
beautiful in its complexity,
programmed down to every detail,
an unconcious automaton,
fully admiral in its precision and complexity.
Yet, the metric of success came from outside,
and it was a long journey to embody a mentor's metric of success,
their own source was quiet, a distraction.
Perfect is a facade, where the player is but the building material.
The artists is elsewhere.
Their own source was silenced to prevent mistakes.

Ideal accepts statistical fluctuations and finds opportunity in them.
Ideal dresses for comfort, to let the music flow.
For Ideal, makeup is not their concern,
but sitting in that chair, state of mind is.
Ideal has played the piece time and time
again, to explore all corners of its beauty,
honouring each,
to develop a gut feeling,
an intuition.
Technicalities are no longer a distraction,
and the essence can flow
as if it was an extension of the players body, mind and soul,
as if the player is in their own trance,
returning to visit childhood imaginary friends
for a delightful conversation.
Ideal requires relaxation,
which requires safety,
which requires the player to have their own gushing source,
rather than a projection
... of what the communal them are wanting and expecting of the player.
It is a pursuit of a state of mind.
It is the discovering of one's own spring,
and learning what makes it flow

Oh dear player, are you real?

I am my own father figure.
Of course I have a biological father,
and that is a part of me,
but I had the freedom to pick and choose
role models, and make myself in my own image.

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3.9.17

Procrastination:

Desire, want, supersedes distant need, but not immediate need.
At what distance?

It is ok so long as the resolve to address urgent needs is high.
Lack of resolve and procrastination leads to failure.

On the other hand,
there are anticipation and proactivity.
To those there are limits,
imposed by our own limitations
and degree of resolve to be proactive.

Being proactive requires mental effort to visualize the future
and creativity to devise and evaluate possibilities,
to which there are limits imposed by human cognition,
the chaos of human society, and the law of diminishing return.

Resolve and creativity to find the right balance
... and implement is key.

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5.4.17

Something deeper, not your big break

There is something deeper.
It's all around you.
Can't you see it?

There is plenty deeper.
Everywhere you look,
It's turtles all the way down.

It's not your big break.
It's in the music, it's in the stars,
It's in the gentle undulations of a calm sea reflecting the moon.

It's sufficient to look up from what you're doing,
Look around for what you are not seeing,
And appreciate the meaning of it all.

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8.1.17

Dreams

A mountain looks higher at the bottom,
a road looks longer a the start,
so some call them dreams,
but they are just roads and mountains.

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12.11.16

"Find who you really are"

Is this not the search for regret-free action?
However, since presence-of-mind fluctuates,
there is always a non-zero probability
of taking actions which appear sub-optimal
upon deeper reflection.
And so it is a journey towards
heightened presence-of-mind.

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11.10.16

I accept this burden








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10.6.16

Doubles Advocate

I hole-hardedly agree, but allow me to play doubles advocate here for a moment. For all intensive purposes I think you are wrong. In an age where false morals are a diamond dozen, true virtues are a blessing in the skies. We often put our false morality on a petal stool like a bunch of pre-Madonnas, but you all seem to be taking something very valuable for granite. So I ask of you to mustard up all the strength you can because it is a doggy dog world out there. Although there is some merit to what you are saying it seems like you have a huge ship on your shoulder. In your argument you seem to throw everything in but the kids Nsync, and even though you are having a feel day with this I am here to bring you back into reality. I have a sick sense when it comes to these types of things. It is almost spooky, because I cannot turn a blonde eye to these glaring flaws in your rhetoric. I have zero taller ants when it comes to people spouting out hate in the name of moral righteousness. You just need to remember what comes around is all around, and when supply and command fails you will be the first to go. Make my words, when you get down to brass stacks it doesnt take rocket appliances to get two birds stoned at once. It's clear who makes the pants in this relationship, and sometimes you just have to swallow your prize and accept the facts. You might have to come to this conclusion through denial and error but I swear on my mother's mating name that when you put the petal to the medal you will pass with flying carpets like its a peach of cake.

24.5.16

Marshmallow Hotspot Tether DNS issue

Problem description:
adb shell onto the phone -> ping works, as does name resolution
On laptop connected via hotspot or usb tethering to the android phone
ping to an ip address works.  ssh to an ip address works.
Name resolution is refused

Solution:
Under IPv4->Other DNS, I added the google NS: 8.8.8.8
Disconnected, reconnected and nslookup is now working, and I can submit this blog post over the wifi hotspot!

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3.5.16

Busyness


noun | busy·ness | \ˈbi-zē-nəs

: the activity of keeping busy
: work that is part of a job created for the sake of it
: the intense activity that results from not having enough to do

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19.4.16

Steps, suited to the task

So close, its breathing in my ear ...
So near, like the climax of a mystery novel

What is it?

The answer is simple: Exercise your free will.
All this blame game, isn't it coming from a guilty conscience
of those unwilling to choose wisely
unwilling to show resolve,
blaming others?

The solution is inside us all
its in plain view
but to walk it, we must make the steps,
and build the habits anew
suited to the task.


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4.3.16

Probiotics and Antibiotics


Probiotics in the prevention of antibiotic-associated diarrhoea and Clostridium difficile infection
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3105609/

This worked:

Low fiber, probiotic diet
White rice, carrots, miso soup


1 cup water+1 lactibiane (Lactobacillus helveticus LA401 candisis)
followed by bfast

1 dose 10am antibiotics followed by rice crackers+peanutbutter+apples+washed&unpeeled carrots

1cup water+1 probactiol 25 (Lactobacillus acidophilus NCFM, Bifidobacterium lactis Bi-07)
followed by lunch

1 cup water+1 lactibiane (Lactobacillus helveticus LA401 candisis)
followed by dinner

1 dose 10pm antibiotics

3.3.16

Pep talk

Not some cliche
For real real
Get out of your comfort zone

Give yourself permission
To live in the moment
To take it all in
Giggle you up inside
Cause you to squirm and wriggle
Dance in a trace
... full of romance
for life
vibrant sharp concious
aware alert present open
playful
permission to laugh out loud as you feel it
flowing free of "shoulds"
... and "what will people thinks"
synonymous with living a facade
let your insides out
don't be afraid to open the door
and find the unknown inside
Catch yourself giving up, leaving the door closed
Make a concious decision to challenge yourself
to try your best
to learn from your mistakes
give yourself permission
to explore your own being
how can you know who you are
if you don't let yourself out
of the "shoulds" box
out here is a beautiful lush green grass meadow
the sun burning high in the sky
beautiful deep blue
your ideas are raining down on you
your soul is a rainbow


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7.2.16

The scientist's gamble

The scientist's gamble:
Pursue the long path from a->b with certain arrival
or pursue a search for a shorter path, a possible holy grail.



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2.2.16

Methods of Adjectivation




Be a leader

... tell others where to go.

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20.1.16

Vanquish the thesis

And may the force be with you on your quest to vanquish
The Thesis in the Swamp of Gradskull.










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3.1.16

2015 Turkey notes

Followed these notes:
http://www.cooks.com/rec/story/66/

Preheat to 165 deg (without fan)
5.4kg bird
- Washed
- Patted dry with paper towel
- Coated with olive oil mixture inside and out:
  - 1/4 cup olive oil
  - 1.5-2 tsp oregano
  - 1.5-2 tsp marjoram
  - did I put also sage??
  - 2-3 tsp salt?
  - pepper

Stuffed with this recipe:
http://www.thedomesticfront.com/old-school-sage-stuffing/
(excluded broth for stuffing used to stuff)

Cooked uncovered
At 2hrs increased to 170deg with fan

Target temp 75 deg C
At 3hrs checked temp
Cooked another 10 mins.
Turkey sat covered for 20-30mins until carved.



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19.12.15

Asparagus and the absence of knowledge

The loss of knowledge
Wild asparagus
Starving in abundance
Can't put 2 and 2 together to save your life
In time
Up against nothing
But time
And comfort zone

9.12.15

I've dreamed the mark of a master

I've had a lucid dream 
an interpretation
of a real experience

but the dream was more lucid than the real
a posthoc realization
the gentle progression of the day
eclipsed by an afterthought
Like looking in the mirror
and finding you're the reflection

It was this.

In my dream, my mind replayed a guitar player,
mirroring an impromptu gig in an Erice Marsala cellar.
It was not the song I remembered.
Now I cannot play even a Ramones song,
but here replaying in my mind
was a song I've never heard.
I was conscious it was a dream,
a manufactured total experience,
and yet I could recognize a skill in the player
far exceeding my own.

So effortlessly forthcoming,
precision without tension, 
speed without hesitation.
An extension of the body,
the song an old friend,
yet entirely new to me.

I was conscious it was a dream,
a manufactured total experience,
and yet I could recognize a skill in the player
far exceeding my own.

I can imagine an expert,
without being one myself 

So effortlessly forthcoming,
precision without tension, 
speed without hesitation.
An extension of the body,
the song an old friend,
beauty from imperfection
and apparent happenstance.

The mark of a master.

To play music,
we have to choose an instrument.



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